LOST...

So the only word worth describing the point i am at in my life is lost.....i am gradually coming to the realization, that walking around aimlessly, thinking that at some point your purpose will arise, is not how life is to be lived. Then again, who am i to judge those lost people whose entire lives revolve around the art of wandering. I guess in that case then they do have an aim, the aim or goal to be aimless. Finding which way to go, where to turn, which turn will lead you down the right path is what seems to be the most difficult part of this here dilemma that i have found myself smack dab in the middle of. what to do, who to turn to, and what if it all works out wrong and the road i do take is not the road i was meant to travel, and then unhappiness consumes my life and i get depressed and so on and so forth.....or if i do choose the correct path and happiness and the life that i had always hoped to find comes true (at least in parts) i do not expect my life to be all shiny and sparkly for me to find, rather just a sense of accomplishment and happiness with whatever it is i choose to do. anyone with any input feel free, though i am pretty sure i am the only crazy reading this......

just a quick hello

i just stopped by to say hello, a quick hello at that, a quick hello then a quick goodbye and that is all we've got....not time to waste, the clocks a running, we musnt be here long....a quick hello a quick goodbye and then farewell we're gone. No need to waste just chatting here, there's nothing to get done, so why is that that we are still here...a quick hello a quick goodbye would have sufficed had none. Why then is it that we stand around pondering what it is, when time is quick and we have no time to even begin to think. There is no time for anything at this point in the game. so keep on keeping on and continue to follow the rabbit you saw when you came in.

an ambien journey

So this blog may take a turn for the worse, as i plan to use it as a practice board for my writing skills....we will see how far this journey takes us, far enough i hope to find out what i will soon be doing for the rest of my life....but for now we can just sit back, relax and enjoy the ambienfilled writing that is mine.
Firstly, I am in quiet a bind, I am not sure whether law school is the thing for me. Since I was a kid i had always dreamt of being a lawyer, but lately, it seems i would like to do something with a little more freedom, a little more room to breath.....hopefully venting and getting all this out there will help further the process this journey that i am taking, the journey i reluctantly am calling "my Life", for lack of a better term. Soon enough they say my life will have a purpose, i will be going places, but those places and these things i was meant to do keep falling to the wayside, whilst i get older every year and have yet to leave the nest. Not saying what i have been doing my whole life is a waste of time, it just could be put to better use. hopefully, soon, i can find some kinda mental clarity that will help me realize what it is i truly desire to do. Photography and writing seem to be the 2 things i do, not well persay, but i do them and i enjoy doing them....perhaps i can find a way to fit that all. and also to remember to focus on what is going on around me and not fall of the wagon of finding my way in life. This supposed journey that i am taking is a big one, on that i must learn to do alone, with little outside support.