ladee da

Making my way back from this place. It seems like so long ago that I lived here. I cannot imagine what life could have been had I stayed in this god forsaken town. It is almost as if I would have been swallowed whole by the earth and never seen again. No one would know me. My name would not be heard outside the city walls. Had that happened where would I be. Where would my husband and children be. These questions haunt me day in and day out. Every time I return to this place these questions swirl around in my head. The doubts never leave me alone. Seeing what this place has done to so many people I have known is a frightening thought. Just take one look at my own parents and you see how hard life here can be. How weathered and worn you become. But you also notice how they do not know any other way. There is not a life they would rather live, for unlike myself, they have never moved away from this small little space in the world. They have never explored beyond the walls. Their world exists only here and anything from the outside does not penetrate this world.